On Letting Go...

There is something recently that I am having a little difficulty letting go.

I wish I could, but I just haven't been able to fully.

I feel silly because the answer is right there and yet, 

I still read a million different meanings in the messages delievered. 

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It is troubling me, because I am not one to shake my fist at the universe.

I am deserving of more, and capable of better...

...but acceptance can be hard. 

Here's to the deliberate practice of letting go. 

xo

On Wishes

Next week, I turn another year older. 

Honestly, I blinked and a year went by.

Last year was the absolute tops - I really mean it. 

It was a sun chasing, rocky mounting climbing, perfect ten of a year. 

And so next week, with a whole new number attached to my name,

and a candle to wish upon, 

I wish for the same. 

To continue to feel too much and express too freely.

To take chances and to make choices that aren't fully thought through.

To keep my head high and my heart strong.

To speak openly, even if the truth can be a little scary.

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To work hard but play a little harder.

To pursue adventure and try new things.

To tell people when I miss them. 

To continue to hope and believe and subscribe to the notion 

that the whole wide world is on our side.

To remember that although there are times we might not get the answers we think we need,

the kind that leave us stumped and scratching our heads, 

there's a reason for that too. 

Things take time. 

Here's to another banner year, friends! 

Thank you, 

for making it so. 

xo

... To Make Everything Okay Again

When I was little and something was troubling me,
I would seek comfort outside.
Our backyard borders a pretty big forest,
and although I wouldn't go far,
I'd walk far enough to feel the coolness of the shade
 and to find a soft cushion of moss upon which to sit.
When I felt that the quiet of the woods had calmed me,
I'd turn around and head back to the house.

Something happened this past week that rattled me, big time. 

It brought on a surge of emotion: panic, angst, confusion, sadness, guilt and regret.

It stirred up some nerves that I didn't even know were there, 

deep down,
 in the core of my core.

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And then, as the uncertainty started to uncloud, 

and the unknown began to piece together into the known,

came relief, hope and gratitude. 

A lot of the initial nerves have dissolved,
in part because I know where I am heading.
It's off to the mountains I go.
To get a little distance from the week- in both miles and memory.
To surround myself with good friends and happy thoughts.
To fill my lungs with fresh air
and to let the sun and the stars and the sierras,
make everything okay again.
xo

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Happiness Happens!

In it's final days, I waved goodbye to July gently, and sweetly.

The last couple of weeks of July had been a mash-up of highs and lows.

It left me with a funny tummy and a brain daze.
So. Goodbye to July, and hello to August!
August, where I begin to settle into renewed consistency
and start a whole new set of  adventures!

August, most especially,
I have always been fond of you. 
And did you know that August 8th is Happiness Happens Day? 

The number eight is regarded as highly lucky - it signifies prosperity and abundance.
So here's to you, Crazy Eights!
May we all be blessed with an abundance of happiness.
That means baby goats and bare feet and ice cream - all day long.
High fives all around: happiness is contagious!
xo

The Secret of Sweet Dreams...

The truest words of summer...

first penned by author Barbara Kingsolver

and since adapted by me. 

Life has been sweet lately indeed.

Filled with barbecues and bikes rides,

weddings and babies,

 workplace accolades and personal milestones - 

the type of milestones reached by pure and honest sticktoitness and discipline.

The sweetness of summer has elicited flexibility, 

the kind that develops solely from a little more life experience, 

a couple more years tucked under our belts...

what a magical thing to finally understand. 

But often, it is the not-so-gentle or subtle reminders that make life so.

It's a toggle. A balance. 

The sweet also comes from the reassuring shoulder squeeze,

the encouraging coaxing, 

and the simple reminder for friends that although we are not invincible,

we love and we support, and in doing so,

we are loved and supported. 

Wishing you all continued and renewed sweetness in the second half of summer.

xo

Pardon the Pause...

Life has been pretty wild these past few weeks. 

I've been making a conscience effort to peg that 'work life balance' bit once and for all. 

I think I've developed a fairly nice rhythm for the time being. 

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By week's end, two big events that have required months of planning, time and attention will be executed and done with.I will celebrate with a big, dramatic sigh of relief. 

June has been pleasantly sunny, warm and clear, 

and has brought unexpected surprises.

More to come...

Have a wonderful Monday, friends.

If I Had My Life to Live Over...

I am long overdue to give some attention to Big Moon.

It's been quite busy in my world as of late.

With what - I couldn't tell you. 

It's been this and that, and hither and thither,

 and it seems lately, that any time I sit down to put thoughts to paper, well...

I'd just assume go for a run or curl up on the couch, or get laundry done instead. 

Wild times here in my world, I know. 

Simple is good. Routine is comforting. 

But goodness.

I am feeling the itch for a big adventure.

A challenge for both body and spirit. 

I leave you with wise thoughts from Nadine Star.

Here's to swimming more rivers, and eating more ice cream. 

Speak soon, friends.

xo

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